I am paralyzed. Exhaustion and grief.
Went to temple last night and couldn't say the Mourners Pray because overcome with emotion crying. I couldn't slide away and hide as every seat was taken. I got a grip. The grief comes and goes.
I was a critic of my Father 's. I would refer to him as an Oppressive Regime but my Oppressive Regime.
Once he died I felt a shocking new feeling. An idealized extra LOVE I did not know I felt. A greater capacity of love and feeling.
I woke up in the middle of the night. Couldn't blog. Dr Fagelman Assault Delita Hooks menaced punched me in the eye the NYPD fixed YouTube exceeded the famous Giuseppi Logan video which reminds me his old record label is having an anniversary party!!!!
I feel back asleep which is something I did not do often as I worked on the Motion to not dismiss. Before I walk up this am I dreamt of Mike Bloomberg's dopey NYPD Intelligence bodyguard Det Kevin Lynch a big baby in a boringly attractive man's body that like too many under Ray Kelly have a gun and a badge. He was in trouble and the NYPD were fixing for him. Dream true. Did Kelly fix it? CCRB ruled in my favor. He, CCRB in motion to not dismiss.
I have a small video on Jeremy the hackactivist Free Jeremy 21 months in jail enough.
Since the attack which damage my retina and cervical spine I stopped my religious work outs and gained a lot of weight. My body doesn't look to good and I pay a lot of money out of pocket for Accupuncture for help with the pain and stresses.
I had a record number this week coping with the stresses.
